Sunday, June 04, 2006

The enemy you know

Here's the thing: my enemy is the scale. It has been for as long as I can remember. For the past year and half it has consumed me. It compounds everything everything else that goes wrong in my life. I berate myself for my failure to control my eating and weight. All of this has brought me to tonight, June 4th, 2006. I got on the scale and saw a number that I have never seen before and am determined to never see again. It almost took my breath away when I saw it. It is a culmination of my unconscious living for so many months. I guess what I am getting at is that I am finally awake. I have disrespected myself far more than anyone else ever could.

It stops today.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

Good luck, Katie. I know you can control it because I've seen you do it.

Katy C. said...

Go you :o) I'm working on that myself right now. I too hit a number I had never seen before. One good thing about the break up has been the lack of wanting to eat. My portion sizes have dropped dramatically and I can already see a difference in just two weeks.

Anonymous said...

Good luck Katie G! I am in the same boat... All the best for you!